Last year today….

 

We were welcoming this beautiful little boy into our lives. 

The last 12 months he as brought so much joy into our lives.  He is such a sweet tempered little boy always ready to snuggle and smiling.  Even though a part of me is really not ready to accept that my “baby” is growing up so fast, the other part of me is so excited to see what this next year will bring us.

I am so thankful to GOD for gifting me with him and for allowing me to be his mommy! 

 

Happy Birthday my Sweet Tyler! 

 

 

Determination

 

I finally was able to reach deep inside of me within the last few weeks and i found it…………

Determination:  the act of deciding definitely and firmly ; also : the result of such an act of decision b: firm or fixed intention to achieve a desired end <a woman of great courage and determination

I have definitely and firmly made a decision to finally do all the things I have been meaning to do the last year!

1. Let my creative side out and paint that “beautiful” white tree in Tyler room.  I am no longer going to stop myself by thinking that it will not come out beautiful or that I will hate  it.  It is just paint and it can be erased or even better I can leave it and actually be proud of myself for trying.
2. I am going to re-vamp Olivia’s room and yep you guessed it, finally paint the “O” Monogram that I designed in my “idea book” 2 years ago.
3. I am going to get my scrap supplies out and finally “SCRAP” pages of my kids, instead of just collecting pretty paper and embellishments.  I am not going to care whether or not it looks perfect, because the truth is my kids will appreciate the memories behind it, not how beautiful the page looks.
4. I am going to loose my “baby weight”.  It upsets me that it took something so “juvenile” to actually motivate me.  I should have done it earlier because I know it will make me feel healthier and happier. 
5. I am making myself a promise that I am not going to get “skinny” obsessed like I was prior to having children.  My body has changed and I accept that….and certainly would not change the fact that I have two beautiful and amazing children for that size “0”. 
6. I am going to stop rolling my eyes or making funny faces at my husband when he tells me I am beautiful, because it upsets him that I cannot accept myself the way he sees me.
7. I am going to make time to myself at least once a week.  I need to re-energize and bring back the “old” Ana. 
8. Happiness is not something that comes easily and I need to make sure that we all reach for it each and everyday.
9. I am going to stop and enjoy the little things … life is not like “TIVO” and I cannot rewind and replay the smiles, kisses, hugs and even tears that are shed today, tomorrow!
10. I am finally going to do something that I have always wanted, but have not done because I was afraid that my mom would be upset and disappointed or that “people” will look at me differently!   After 13 years of putting it off, I am going to get my tattoo!

 

My sweet little boy….

Every time I hold this sweet little one I am in shock at how quickly he is growing.  I can’t believe that in week he will be ONE!

Where did the time go???

 

I finally scrapped….

 

Well at least I think I did….does it count if you use quick pages and changed them up a bit to fit what you want?  Because that is exactly what I did tonight.  I have been itching to scrap, but the truth is that I am not even sure anymore where to start.  I haven’t touched anything in over a year and well it became a little intimidating, so I decided that a few quick pages would just be what a needed.

Since I took such sweet pictures last weekend of Olivia and Tyler I decided to use those and hopefully soon I will get lots of mojo and finally get all the old pictures done.  {One can hope & dream, right?}

 

 

I don’t like the grass…….

This is my sweet little guy on Sunday Afternoon…doesn’t he look so happy?

I decided to set up a blanket and enjoy the warm weather while we watched Olivia play on the swings.  It was going really well until he started crawling and his hands hit the lawn.  WOW, did he ever freak out!!!!  Anytime his hand would skim the lawn he would start crying hysterically.  Isn’t that funny?  He hates the feel of it.  My poor boy.

 

Not to worry, I just sat next to him and made sure that he would not crawl close to the edges of the blanket and finally I got some smiling pictures.

 

We even took a turn on rock climbing and he loved it.  His little hands and feet were everywhere and he tried so hard to make his way up.

I am so looking forward to beautiful spring days spend outside playing and hopefully soon Tyler will get a liking to being out on the lawn and actually touching it.  One can hope right?  Otherwise it will be an interesting spring & summer.

 

Ana

Spring…

 

Spring is finally here!  I love the to look out into our yard and see all the beautiful tulips, the birds are chirping and flying all around. 

Today is 85 degrees!  Can you believe it? 

The kids and I are planning to stay outside and run around the freshly mowed lawn, use the swings until we are exhausted and for Olivia lots of time on the slide and rock wall.

Have a Wonderful Day!

Friendship…

 

“Friends are forever, you might lose them but you'll never forget them.” Author Unknown

 

This pretty much summons up how I am feeling right now.  I believe that friends touch your heart and no matter what may happen throughout the years they will never really loose the spot you have created for them.

I have heard many times that friends come and go and to a degree yes I have been there and lost a few throughout the years.  But this time its different!  A big part of me is really not ready to let go of this person yet, but it is something that is not in my hands anymore.  I feel hurt/sad and yes a little guilty that this happened. 

I have prayed these last few days that a resolution would be reached and yet it was not, at least not the one that I had hoped for. 

Now all there is left for me to do is pray that not only I find peace with this, but also everyone else involved.  It is not easy for I still care for this person, and when you care for someone you cannot just forget and move on.  I still wish her and her family all the best in the world, I still hope that somehow she can put any hurt and anger behind her and move on, just like I am going to try.